Sunday, September 24, 2006

http://onceinalullaby.wordpress.com/
I need a new blog because.. mine is screwed up and.. too many people know about it.

I think I'll get a LJ.

Monday, September 18, 2006

I'm back.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

It'd be amazing if I could tell myself to get over it, to move on.
It'd be amazing if I could.
It'd also be amazing if I could simply just... move on. Snap back to reality. Get ahold of myself. Just in one instant. But then, I wouldn't be human.

Tell me, how do humans get all this emotion from chemicals? Do they just load up in one part of your brain, trying to take you out with dare I say intense and somewhat pitiful sobs?

I've tried.
I'm still trying.
I've tried hasting it, brushing it off, ignoring it, doing everything humanly possible in order to get over it.

Betrayal, I suppose. But I guess this is the path I chose. These are the consequences. I'll face it, get over it, and move on. I'm not getting involved. Me getting involved only creates problems.

I guess time'll do, and I guess I'll leave.

I wish, I really wish that there was someone or something out there that could just tell you the right thing to do.

Like Bryce said: It's time I got over myself.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

free to face the life thats ahead of me

So, yesterday was pretty sweet I'll have to admit.

Sammy came over at 4ish and we talked to Bryce/Scott minimally and determined what was happening, Scott couldn't go because his grandparents were coming over. Bryce picked us up at like 4:45 and then we ventured over to Target/Borders/Baja Fresh and Mrs. Fick picked us up at 6:45ish and we went to Bryce's house. HAHA. We basically did the same stuff as we usually do... but Sammy held their snake and I petted it and it was AWESOME.

Then we went to drop Bryce off for his "over-nighter guys night" shindig and we stayed for an extremely long time doing who knows what (CATCHPHRASE oh wow we sucked but Asian power) and yeah. Then I got home at like 10:10.