if lucy fell

"I was in love with a guy, William.
I was completely absorbed by him.
I felt like I had no sense of autonomy, no sense of being.
I almost didn´t exist without him.
I couldn´t sleep, eat. I couldn´t do anything unless he was around.
It was like I was just the same person.
And I thought that was being madly in love... or "the big love" as you´d say.
I read an article recently... about how overrated this sense of falling in love is.
People just seem to think it´s all that initial thing.
The flowers, the explosions and... that excitement you see when you see someone.
And then what?
No one knows how to maintain that.
That´s what the big love is.
The capacity to reinvent the relationship... to expand and maintain the feeling.
And not feel that if you don´t have it, then it´s not working.
You walk out and find it elsewhere."

And, you know what, I saw that movie in China. Did God make me think about that quote for a reason or what? I don't know. Maybe I'm just setting myself up to make more mistakes or something.

But, I'm sorry. It seems that I have made a mistake. I should have fought.